Joy, uncertainty and fear.

Time is like a ticking bomb, which makes me nervous at the moment. Anxiety mixed with joy, uncertainty and fear. Not sure what is currently happening with myself, I look in the mirror and think about why my plans not went as it should. It scares me the thoughts I had the times I looked forward to an uncertain future I knew this year would be. I'm stronger after all the decline I received, but am I satisfied? Should I be, or am I selfish enough to let it go?

I know that this is a development year for my body and soul, I'm just afraid I'm stuck. I can not possibly make it fail artisticly; Im afraid getting stuck with myself.
I have so many flaws that just irritates my brain.
Good god I am personal.